However, I have a little bit of an update. I went to see my doctor last week and it was another good appointment. Even she was appalled at what the Rheumatologist had said to me and the notes he sent her. She kept apologizing. It's good to know that even she thinks it was ridiculous.
She upped my medications again and added in another. I'm struggling with the increase but I'm giving myself a full month before I judge it.
There's even more at night but this (with a filter that I thought was pretty) is what my mornings now consist of:
I feel like it's so much. I'm 31! And you know what I just realized? I have no clue what kinds of things lurk in these pills. Are there other ingredients that are in medications? Or is it just the active? I really don't know and that's kind of scary. Am I being weird? Probably. I guess all that matters is if it works or not and if it works I'm totally fine with it. The side effects right now are not fun, though.
My body feels so heavy. It's like my feet are in cement blocks and I'm having to go through my day dragging them. I've also started speaking really slowly and I've somehow developed a terrible stutter. I haven't been able to come up with words, even more than normal. It's kind of embarrassing. I've even gotten so upset at times I've just stopped speaking and started crying. I've always been shaking and tremoring more than ever. I have hope that I'll get past this in a couple of days.
I've been feeling pretty positive overall, though.
As for life, we went kayaking for the first time this season. I missed it so much and it felt so good to get out on the water. I hurt like crazy the next day but being out there in nature was good. We went to our absolute favorite place, which we end up going to at least a couple of times each season. It's one of my favorite places in the entire world. And, we had a little car trouble and ended up having to stop at the casino nearby and I won $220. How cool is that? I don't gamble, normally, but it was fun.
That's it for now. Please let me know how you're all doing, though. I'd love to hear how you are or how your summer is.