I’m 30. I can’t believe it! I don’t feel old, or anything, but I’m so happy to be continuing on the journey called life in a new decade. I never really thought I’d make it here so the fact that I am officially 30 years old is something I’m really proud of. Maybe it’s silly to be proud of turning another year older but I really do feel like it’s an accomplishment because it’s something so many people never get lucky enough to do. It’s an honor and a gift that I am looking forward to using as fully as I can.
Even though I’m happy with who I am as a person I believe we’re all works in progress and we can always try harder and learn more. I have some things that I’d like to conquer in an effort to make myself the best that I can be so I thought I would share those things with you all today.
This year I plan on spending as much time as I possibly can with the people I love. I want to make the most of the time that we have and dedicate myself fully to being with them and truly hearing and listening to them. I want to ask as many questions as I can and get as many answers as I can. I do spend a lot of time with them and I already have so many wonderful memories but I need more. We all need more time with the people we love.
This year I hope to be more patient. It’s something I’m constantly trying to work on because I have a terrible tendency of becoming impatient; especially with the people I love most. Life is short as is our time here so I want to spend that time being as kind, generous, open and patient as I possibly can be. There’s no need to have a short temper but there is a need to be tolerant and understanding.
This year I hope to have better control of my anxiety. Anxiety is not my friend. It’s not something I have a good grip on and I don’t really know how I’m going to go about learning to control it but I vow to try my hardest to learn coping techniques and ways to understand it better.
This year I want to refine my sleeping habits and develop a healthy routine. I want to sleep better, not necessarily more. I want to go to bed earlier and wake up earlier. I want to create a plan and stick it because I think it will help me be better in both mind and body.
I want acceptance. I want to accept who I am completely and accept my abilities. I don’t want to feel guilt for what I can and cannot do. I want to know that I am deserving and I want to be content. I have an awful habit of feeling guilt for things that I am lucky enough to have, when others have less, and of feeling guilt for not being able to do more, when I feel like I should be doing more. I am enough.
I want to stop being so wasteful. I want to use up the products I already have, wear the clothes already hanging in my closet, eat the food in the fridge and just shop less and spend less money. I have so much already. I don’t need more. Maybe this will be the year of actually completing a no-buy! I want to spend my money of experiences rather than things.
I want to write about my day to day in more detail in my planner. I use my planner to remember things so I want to use it more like a diary than a place where I can list the things I did. I want to talk about feelings and experiences in so much more descriptive language so I can truly remember each little things.
I want to spend more time outdoors and less time on the computer. This one is simple so we’ll leave it at that.
I hope to love more, laugh more, create more, and just live more in this upcoming year of my life and throughout the rest of my time, as well. I control my situation and my life and I want to have some fun and make some happy memories. Here’s to 30 and what this year will bring my way!